Really Hate To Say This.....

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Can You Feel Me When I Think About You

"I always try to tell my fans that I can never truly explain to them how grateful I am for them. I can’t really understand the fact that I can just go on a stage for an hour and sign as many autographs as I can and they’re okay with that, and they wait 10 hours, fly from different counties and wait all day and me just doing that is good enough. i don’t feel like that’s enough, they’re amazing." - Selena Gomez

You Know What We Came Here For

You don’t want to let people in. It’s hard for you. And once you let those people in, you don’t want to let them go. And when they fuck up, it’s like, why would you do that to me? I gave you my feelings, I did everything for you, and you still screwed me over. It’s like you wish they were a better person. - Lauren Conrad

THIS.

Things We've All Done in School

1. Asked to go to the bathroom, when you don’t even need to go.
2. Told your teacher that you accidently left your homework at home, and promised to turn it in the next day. When in reality, you hadn’t even started it.
3. Told your parents you didn’t feel good, just so you could stay home.
4. When hand-written essays were assigned, you wrote bigger than usual, to take up more space.
5. Taken longer than necessary when your teacher asks you to run an errand.
6. Had infinte urges to cuss out a large number of people in your school. Teachers included.
7. Told yourself that you’d study for that test, but ended up on the internet anyway.
8. Woken up in the AM, exausted. You told yourself that the minute you got home, you’d take a nap, and then go to bed early. Again, you ended up on the internet.
9. Gone out of your way to see your crush in the hallway.
10. Texted during class,got away with, and felt like BAMF.

Last night would have been the best night of my life. Yeah, I've seen the Jonas Brothers before but I was still SO excited. I have never been more excited for a concert or even that close before. Watching other people's videos and seeing other pictures of people from the 6th row really makes me upset. They were THAT close. Touching them, they would sing into people cameras, they would come right next to them. My heart is pretty much broken. But it's not even the fact they cancelled ... They cancelled without any explanation why they did, and instead of post poning it and changing they date, they full out cancelled. Same for 20 other shows. Yesterday while checking ticketmaster I counted how many more show they have ... FOUR more shows instead of FIFTEEN. Are you kidding me. You owe us, BIG TIME.

"Thought you should know I'm letting go, Its so not worth it anymore. I gave you to many tries & lived to many lies. Bad dreams and goodbye." -Miley cyrus

Get Ready for the Ride of Your Life

Officially been at school for 7 days. Gross. But hey, my classes are good! Math 11 is a pain in the ass, no I'm not the only grade 12 but I really wish I didn't have to re-take it. My semester would be so much easier/better. Media arts is always an amazing class. I love the people that are in it so I know it will be a fantastic semester. Comp civ is also a big pain in the ass cause he is not my favorite teacher. His tests are hard and he gives homework every day AND he rambles on and on and on and on so it's hard to keep up and when he calls on you and you haven't been listening... shit hits the fan. But he's really smart and knows aaaaa lot of things so he's a good teacher haha. Lunch is FANTASTIC. Couldn't have asked for better people in that block :) well, I wish I did have some more people but this is good :) and English is my fave class. Same teacher as last time and he's great. PLUS it's with one of my bffls so it's just great. I haven't had a class with her since grade 10 so it's perfect. Hopefully this year will be drama free and exciting. OMG car tag by the way, best thing of my life. When I get a job (and hopefully I do) half of the money that goes towards gas will be for car tag. Uses it up fast but so worth it. SO much fun. I've never been more mad/frustrated/excited/happy/laughing so hard all at once before. Best feeling in the world. If you've never felt it, you're missing out :)

THANK GOD

I Can Almost See It

You only have one life to do whatever you want. Within 100 years nobody will remember the stupid mistakes you made so make a fool of yourself while you still have the chance because if you spend all your life trying to be the coolest kid around you will never be happy with yourself.

Let's Have the Time of Our Lives

So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.

Smile for Me

3 AM is my favorite time of the day. I wish I could tell you why, but I really don’t know. I wish I could explain what it is about staying up late, but I don’t think that I could. I wish you would stop looking at me like that when I wake up tired every morning. I wish I could sleep during the day and stay up all night – not because I want to miss out on anything, no, but because the night is quiet and still in the most perfect way – but I can’t do that. So I’ll just stay awake some more, I guess

Miam forever

THESE.

Day Ten: One Confession

Hmm, one confession. I hate you. Well no, I don't hate anyone, but I have a strong dislike for you. All the nights that I spent being upset over you, not worth it. You're funny and nice and everything but when it comes down to this I wish you were out of my life. Even though I wish for that to never happen. And you talk shit about me to one of my best friends. Are you serious.. I didn't know someone can be that dumb. Whatever. I'm done.

I'm Miles From Where You Are

Is it bad that I want my Aunt and Uncle to move so they can sell me their car. I NEED A CAR. I can't stand being in the car with my dad anymore / waiting for my mom to get home from work so I can use hers. I only get it nights and weekends. I'd rather have it for school than weekends. I'd be willing to make that sacrifice.

You are allowed to read my shit, but:


Don’t ever speak to me about it
Don’t assume it’s about you
Don’t assume it’s about others
Don’t use it against me in any form
If your going to discuss it with others, make sure you hide your trail and make sure you don’t make it obvious that whatever your speaking is about me
Don’t create fiction from it
Don’t always assume it’s the truth
Don’t believe what I say for most of the part because it comes through instincts
Just read it and move on. Nothing more, nothing less.

Random Fact #3

"dammit i'm mad" is "dammit i'm mad" spelled backwards

Don't Let Go

If one day you noticed that we haven't talked in a while. It's not because I don't care anymore, it's because you pushed me away

Light the Sky Tonight

Forever is a long time but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side

People Change and Promises are Broken

So far my first week of school is going pretty great. Tuesday was the first day just to take pictures and get schedule, Wednesday was exciting going to my classes for the first time, and today (Thursday) was crap. hahahaha I was so excited for school but now that we're into work I'm not really liking it. Especially the fact that I had the perfect locker but the stupid band kids have to take over because they haven't been assigned them yet. Are you kidding me. Now I gotta have a locker randomly upstairs. Whatever, this year will be good no matter what!

TONIGHT

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. :)
2. :'(

Story of my Life

I miss summer already.

We Can't Stop the World

We’re teenagers. We fuck up a lot, we do a lot of crazy shit, we’d rather stay up late at night just to watch TV rather than studying. We like our music loud, we dress up the way we want to, we like going to concerts, we’re clumsy, we eat whatever we want to eat, we fall in love too easily, we often break rules, but that’s the way of life we want to live. To live beyond extraordinary. We want to be forever young.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1. Smile
2. Height
3. Smell amazing

I'm Missing You so Much, Can't Help It I'm in Love

THIS YEAR WILL BE DIFFERENT. I can feel it !! Better grades, better parties, more hangouts, more events. We will make the best of our senior year. CAN'T WAIT

A Day Without You is Like a Year Without Rain

I actually cannot believe school is tomorrow. This is crap. Seriously, where the hell did summer go. Why did it go so fast. I feel like I didn't do enough. So mamy things were left on my list that I wished I could have accomplished.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1. Smell bad
2. Lies all the time
3. Chewing with their mouth open
4. Too clingy

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done

(JUST REALISED I SKIPPED THIS ONE)
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6. No regrets

"You've got enemies in life? Good. That means you actually stood up for something" -Eminem

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

I would do this one, but I have more than 5 people in my life who mean a lot to me.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. A song
2. "I wish I was really rich"
3. "Do I have a text?"
4. "What am I doing tomorrow?"
5. "I'm hungry"
6. "I want a car"
7. Awkward moments that I somehow seem to remember when I don't want to

Puttin on My Shades to Cover Up My Eyes

SO driving by myself is the most unreal thing ever. I can't wait to get my own car. Praying around my birthday time. So great not to have my mom sitting next to me hahahah. It actually feels so weird being in the car alone, having no one to talk to while you drive is just aaaah! I'll get used to it I guess :P. The last two weeks of summer have been absolutely amazing. Need to cross everything off!